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06 January 2019 @ 02:21 pm
Thanks for writing for me! I hope you got something you wanted to do!

About Me
I'm Mousi and I've been around since HP fandom in like 2003 (god I'm so old). I've been mainly in Johnny's Entertainment fandom for a long while now, but I love shounen and sports anime, so once in a while something sticks.

My AO3 is [archiveofourown.org profile] mousapelli but the easiest place to search through my insane amount of fic is on Kira-Kira.net, my website. The newer stuff will be on Ao3, though, because I'm not the best at updating, and for anime fandoms it's a more worthwhile place to post.

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19 February 2018 @ 12:38 am
Thanks for writing for me! I hope you got something you wanted to do!

About Me
I'm Mousi and I've been around since HP fandom in like 2003 (god I'm so old). I've been mainly in Johnny's Entertainment fandom for a long while now, but I love shounen and sports anime, so once in a while something sticks.

My AO3 is [archiveofourown.org profile] mousapelli but the easiest place to search through my insane amount of fic is on Kira-Kira.net, my website. The newer stuff will be on Ao3, though, because I'm not the best at updating, and for anime fandoms it's a more worthwhile place to post.

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02 January 2018 @ 11:16 pm
Thanks for writing for me! I hope you got something you wanted to do!

About Me
I'm Mousi and I've been around since HP fandom in like 2003 (god I'm so old). I've been mainly in Johnny's Entertainment fandom for a long while now, but I love shounen and sports anime, so once in a while something sticks.

My AO3 is [archiveofourown.org profile] mousapelli but the easiest place to search through my insane amount of fic is on Kira-Kira.net, my website. The newer stuff will be on Ao3, though, because I'm not the best at updating, and for anime fandoms it's a more worthwhile place to post.

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09 May 2017 @ 10:26 pm
that's literally all this post is for. Well, ok, while i'm here:

Seasonal Flavor, F/F Kimberly/Tommy in the 2017 Power Ranger movie verse, borderline NSFW. Because i want genderflipped Tommy Oliver more than ANYTHING, and the cast is actually rooting for it to make the numbers even. There's no chance I'm getting that, right? LET ME DREAM.

Still looking for some more JE writers over on [community profile] ho_summer! We have 9 which is enough to probably run, but more in a couple of the bands would be better. Sign-ups right here! until the 14th.

We did SASO truth or dare over the weekend and the funniest thing I did was write this rap:

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01 May 2017 @ 10:12 pm
I mean, friends.

SASO sign-ups were tonight WHOOP WHOOP. Me, [personal profile] marks, [personal profile] prillalar, [personal profile] beltenebra, and [personal profile] doxian all got ourselves signed up as Team YuraBeka. I was super nervous something would go wrong and jacked up my form signup TWICE but thank goodness we are all in and look good.

If you also like the sports anime, you should do the SASO (Sports Anime Summer Olympics). The people are great, the bonus rounds are so much fun, it goes on ages, and last summer it single-handedly brought back both my faith in fandom and some old friends. SASO is great!. Looking at the schedule seems overwhelming if you've never seen it before, so if you have any questions, feel free to ask! There's also an intro post so you can see if you know anybody who's doing it already.

Speaking of things, so Mirai and I started [community profile] ho_summer, a JE FQF for the summer, and sign-ups are open to authors of any JE group, debuted or junior, so long as you are a-okay with the porn. Sign-up post is here! Aside from the exchange itself, which I'm nervous about having enough people to run, my plan is to run a couple little bonus rounds or posts to encourage some hanging out, esp now that a bunch of people migrated to DW all at once.

If you could try and pass that around, I'd be grateful! I'm not getting much traction out of my twitter in terms of RTs and I'm not tumblr anymore and I'm still working on which comms are active/will let me advertise. Comms or other places you can suggest would be welcome!

I am off to make some Team YuraBeka icons and then start a recs post on [community profile] ho_summer, but if new people are showing up, hi!

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08 April 2017 @ 11:03 pm
Everyone seems to be having an LJ crisis around me and I'm just...not. Russia owned the thing for years already? Clearly people can do what they want with their own journals, but if you already abandoned the thing years ago, I don't see the point in coming back to delete it. They already had your data. You're just creating a bunch of dead links.

For me personally it feels unpleasant to have a string of those on my flist. It's like having a friend you haven't talked to for years come back just to say "I'm REALLY not talking to you, BYE FOREVER." I realize there's probably no difference either way, so my feelings are basically irrational. If you're doing the thing, I'm not trying to guilt you or whatever, I just. idk. feel unpleasant.

And I resent the added chore of figuring out if/how to back up shiritori or maybe even JE100, because I already have 900 things to do and fucking around with DW vs LJ is not one of them.

My current grad class is ruining my LIFE. I've never done this much homework for anything ever. It's taking me hours every week, like it's all I do the whole weekend, so I've managed to start zero percent of my final paper, read zero percent of the research for it. I accidentally turned in my presentation write up a week late because fuck my life. at least the marking period is over and also my annual observation, but next is Latin Festival which is a big font of fuck everything, landing right after my annual hatred of birthday week (or as it is called around here, Thanksgiving week, part 2).

Also I think I might be addicted to Sheetz's cold brew coffee. I've been there so often in the last two weeks that tonight i went to the other Sheetz because I was embarrassed. I think the people at my regular one know me.

SASO nominations are open. And hey the Sharks are in the playoffs. Ideally they'll perform better there than they have been the last couple weeks of the regular season, yikes.

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23 March 2017 @ 10:06 pm
so after being at the panera for 3 hrs, i realized i had left both my wallet and keys in the bathroom in the first ten minutes i was there. WHY SO STUPID, SELF. Happy ending: the counter lady had them. Everything was fine. I nearly cried, and she gave me a cookie because she felt so bad for me. For real, self, you are too old to do shit like this.

uh hi i haven't posted here since chocolate box letters pfft.

Still writing a ton of Yoi, including an inexplicably 12k of Leo/Guanghong for White Day. but mostly yurabeka.

Currently watching ACCA (not short for anything) which is about spies and best friends and bread and smoking and best friends who are spies. and photography. and toast. and coup d'etat. I wish I could nominate this for SASO.

SASO IS SOON. well sort of. I'm insanely excited for it because of how much fun I had last year and how I have new fandoms this year to read/write in. I think we mostly have our team together even! I'm psyched. And I'm trying to watch enough All Out to make it stick but I'm having some trouble uh falling asleep immediately so I have to keep rewatching episodes.

I got an incredibly drastic haircut that i'm probably not keeping, but it's all short on the sides and long enough to spike on the top and longish down the back. En says in Japan they call it a 'wolf cut' although neither of us knows why.

also I feel asleep and didn't post this last night! all the failure.

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06 January 2017 @ 10:22 pm
Thanks for writing for me! I hope you got something you wanted to do!

About Me
I'm Mousi and I've been around since HP fandom in like 2003 (god I'm so old). I've been mainly in Johnny's Entertainment fandom for a long while now, but I love shounen and sports anime, so once in a while something sticks.

My AO3 is [archiveofourown.org profile] mousapelli but the easiest place to search through my insane amount of fic is on Kira-Kira.net, my website. The newer stuff will be on Ao3, though, because I'm not the best at updating.

In General
I'm really easy, honestly. If you write something that you enjoy, the odds are that I'll like it too. If you need more guidance, I tend to write the kind of thing that I enjoy reading so you can read through some of the stuff on my archive. In general I lean towards slice-of-life, banter, group fic, that kind of thing.

Friends/teammates hanging around, group setting, banter and teasing, boys just hanging around and doing stupid stuff together, hijinks. I love group setting, so friends at school, or rinkmates, teammates or university friends, that kind of thing. I like all kinds of relationship fic like confessing or getting together or established or moving to next level, casual hook up turns into something else, pretty much anything is fine. Gen is okay too? If it's got a good hook to it, like about character development or people growing together, or something like that.

I actually really like horror or scary stories? Like ghost or supernatural type, not gory. But unless you have a GENIUS idea I'm not sure I'd want to see one with any of the fandoms/pairings I signed up for.

I don't hate AUs but I prefer fic that's close to canon (aging up is all right, though). I'm not intensely kinky and I don't read a lot of stuff with toys, serious domination, fetish things, etc. I can take tense or sad fic so long as it's going to come out all right in the end, so unfixable things like character death or major injury aren't any good (although see above how good horror/scary fic as an exception). I'm not into ABO at all.

You do you. I love porn, sure, but if you end up with slow burn friends to lovers and all I get is some kissing, I can live with that for the sake of good build-up and/or plot.

Honestly I feel like I already said what I had to say about these fandoms on the form, but here are some more thoughts if you want them:

Yuri on Ice
I'm super into the Yuri/Otabek at the moment (i don't have a weirdness about their ages, but if you need to age them up for you, that's fine). There's just a lot of ground to cover there with living and different countries and training and Yuri's growth spurt about to happen. I love language/cultural differences in general in this show. I love how Victor/Yuuri are something in between friends and mentors to Yuri and I think it'd be interesting to explore how that relationship changes as Yuri gets older and the age gap narrows. For Victor/Yuuri, both fic set in the spaces of the series and fic about the next year in St. Petersburg are both good. Trying to figure out how they're going to live together, where they're going to live, just working out logistics. You could really write some amazingly hot, established relationship sex for these two.

I threw the Yuri/Yuuri/Victor in because I feel like it's interesting but I don't see myself writing it (that's unusual). You would definitely have to age up Yuri on this one, please. You might even need to AU their ages some because that gap is crazy big.

Check Please
The short thing says it all here. Haus bros! Bits baking. Chowder loving the Sharks. Bits and Jack trying to be quiet and sneaky (they aren't sneaky). How did Rans and Holster become best friends anyway? The team chirping one or both of them for the loud sex and being like "what time did that chick leave, damn" and Holster mumbling into his cereal that she left really freaking early while Rans suddenly remembers he has to do any other thing somewhere...else. People wearing each other's jerseys (so hot). Nerd glasses.

When I watched this, I thought a lot about how Haru and Rin both needed their teams really badly, and how they would have probably been better off as people if Rin hadn't gone away for so long, even if it made them better swimmers (they can make up for it now, though). Also that Rin ended up super happy at Samezuka and any kind of dorm shenanigans or team bonding would make me really happy. For Nagisa/Rei I think you could write really adorable getting together fic where either Rei is a basketcase trying to confess (meanwhile nagisa already knows) or else he's completely oblivious while Nagisa is using all his wiles to get them together. What do they even do their senior year with the others having graduated? Rin and Haru trying to figure out each other at the same time as they deal with university and a professional career and olympics, or else how they've already figured out how to work together even while Haru struggles to cope with change while Rin is always running towards it. Being best friends. Being angry with each other and having other best friends to turn to.

Raven Cycle
Magic! Oh man I am in for the magic. Especially with the Ronan/Adam there's so much cool stuff to talk about with dream magic and Cabeswater and I'm sure Ronan re-dreams that thing basically right away just for the sake of meeting Adam there. I'd take either during the series fic here, or else if you want to explore how they handle going to college or whatever Adam and Ronan are going to do, or how they spend there last summer in between, it's all good. But magic, though.

Macdonald Hall
You could do anything with Bruno and Boots and it would be great. School fic, university fic, summer break fic. I can never decide whether it's more satisfying if they figure out they're in love while still roommates or if it's separation that brings that on. Bruno has to be ENTIRELY DRAMATIC about it. Boots has quietly known about it forever but was waiting for Bruno to figure it out. Dorm 3 trying desperately to hook them up when secretly they're already together, or else trying to keep them apart (because shared walls) when the two of them don't have a clue.

I'm not sure if this matters, but I really wanted to request Haikyuu but then couldn't because the pairings were too weird (I did offer to write it, though). So if that is your jam, I am totally into Suga/Asahi, Kuroo/Tsukki, Ukai/Takeda, and also think Bokuto is amazing.

Thank you again for writing for me! I hope you have a good time!

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02 January 2017 @ 12:22 pm
can somebody either confirm or deny that if i duplicated my lj when i started using dw that it's basically backed up already? I used to use that ljarchive thing more regularly but i recall it always being terrible.

I don't really care about the thing in general, because hardly any of my friends are still over there and I'm mostly checking my flist for JE comms and shiritori, but i've been LJ permanent for so long that i'm not going anywhere until the whole site goes dark. and at that point my concern will honestly be what we do with shiritori.

I guess move it to dw? That's where SASO was. idk. i feel like i'm too old to get worked up about internet stuff properly, and also I doubt intensely anybody in Russia cares about the silly fic we all post. If i can migrate the thing i guess I will, assuming I even have enough mod powers to do that, and if not then I guess we'll start over in an emergency.

anyway, my holiday was low-key and peaceful, I don't travel since my parents are local, and I can't believe it's my last day of break already. I mostly spent it writing ridiculous Yuri/Otabek when I should have been working on United, and rewatching YoI accidentally several times over. I enjoyed Rogue One a lot, and also took my mom to see Sing, which was cute. 3bro took me down to DC for a day to have ramen and sushi at two places he likes. We tried the Russian Roulette sushi plate and I got the wasabi piece on the very first try, pfft.

I spent New Years with the chinchilla, watching the Twilight Zone marathon, which is, I assume, how I'm likely to spend all of them. 2016 wasn't the worst year of my life, but I don't see any reason 2017 will be much different. I appreciate the stability, at least. I'm in the middle third of my teaching career, so I don't anticipate much upheaval there, and almost halfway to my PhD. It's hard to explain this in a way that doesn't make it sound like I need some sort of intervention. I wish I were happier, but I don't wish it at the expense of sometimes being much sadder, again. So I guess this is the way things are.

I will say that SASO was a large bright spot this year because it's the first thing that's made me feel connected to fandom again in a long time, and I really needed that in contrast to how stupidly lonely i feel in RL like 90% of the time. I started using Ao3 more for the same reason, although that's less connection and more like strangers giving you a high five, but it's something. I don't feel any shame about how much validating I get/want/need from that. YoI fandom, specifically, has left more comments on two fics in the last week than I think I've had in a year anywhere else, so there is that.

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12 December 2016 @ 11:19 pm
I've been watching I, Claudius which somehow I've never seen and it's really good, but suddenly Capt Picard was Sejanus and I couldn't concentrate on anything but that for like two episodes pfft. But it is true that it seems basically to come almost entirely from Suetonius and so it's a bit overinterested in all the scandalous rumors. then again, I wasn't there, and for all I know it was exactly this bad or even worse. Sometimes I don't know whether to be distressed that leaders are perpetually terrible people and for some reason everybody just puts up with it, or to find it hopeful that somehow the Empire carries on despite a string of increasingly incompetent crazy people.

my knee is killing me which means snow in a couple days. We had a little bit this morning, but not enough to get me out of anything. I'm so ready for winter, so ready. Snowwww.

I finally did some christmas shopping this week, but honestly I really just have my parents, 3bro, and my nephew, aside from baking stuff for people at school usually. Mom came over and baked cookies with me this weekend, and aside from the brownie cookies and the usual m&ms, we made orange cranberry drop cookies which turned out amazing, and I did about a dozen of them with cherries instead. THEYRE AMAZING. I kind of want to try almond cherry next time instead of coconut cherry. I might try these apricot tricorner things next weekend because i had an almost/apricot strudel at the christmas market that was stupidly delicious.

Yuri on Ice (which we've started calling Yurio Nice on twitter) is amazing and episode 10 ruined me with its goodness. I'm going to be so sad when it's over but i can't wait to see what happens in the last two, if the dance battle wasn't saved for the end. I'm not at all over the genius of the dance battle montage, and some genius set it to Shut Up and Dance and it's so perfectly I nearly cried over it. It's beautiful.

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28 November 2016 @ 10:01 pm
the chinchilla doesn't like it when i wear socks.

every winter we go through this, where it finally gets cold enough that I have to be wearing socks during chinchilla time, and the chinchilla takes this as her personal invitation to ATTACK MY FEET WITH IMPUNITY. The first winter I thought, "maybe she's never seen a sock on a foot before and thinks it's eating me and i need to be freed" but

A) the chinchilla is not anywhere near that altruistic, and if by now our relationship is good enough that I think she might save me from something if it were easy and not at all scary, it surely wasn't that good two years ago.

B) she's way smarter than that. she knows that's my foot in there, I know she does, she's just being a jerk. she's so smart she's pretending to be dumb so when i yell at her she can be like "whaaaat? i don't know any better! I'm a silly rodent!" Just like she fakes not understanding what i'm saying when I tell her not to chew the door/baseboards for the 1000th time.


Watched the men's short and free programs for the NHK Trophy (I had to switch my VPN to canada so i could stream it, but I managed), and I enjoyed all of that. I'm looking forward to the finals in a couple weeks. Yuzuru is an amazing little darling, but the best part is him breaking 300 total points, turning to his coach, and saying "I still want a few more." His coach was like "I KNOW YOU WANT A FEW MORE, SHUT UP."

After the babka, I made Mac and Cheese with cornbread crumbs for thanksgiving and holy shit it was amazing. I recommend doing that.

NaNo is only at 11k because I am the worst, but it's okay, I'll keep working on it. Cubeverse is fun. Yasui just tasered Genki in the bit i just wrote. Being a ghost hunter is a hard life.

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Santa Fe isn't even close to my favorite RENT song, but I've had it stuck in my head for a couple days. it seems appropriate.

I thought about making a post a couple times after the election last week, but always feel like what I have to say isn't helpful or constructive or even nice. basically I'm just intensely tired of thinking "come on guys, we can do better than this" and then, nope, no rational sense at all. Just insanity. I feel kind of hopeless, not about my self/life personally, but just this keeps being a problem and we never fix it, we just let it be the same problem over and over and everybody gets all mad but then we just circle right back around again and surprise, it's the same problem.

okay, maybe a tiny bit of the hopelessness is about myself, because when I gave up around 2am that night, I went to bed thinking that I should feel more anxious personally but since I'm basically never dating anyone, does it even matter I'm not straight? But whatever, it's also almost thanksgiving week which is one of the 2 weeks in the year that I feel the most awful during, and since I can't seem to make that stop either, the best thing to do seems to be to just try and be sad quietly without dragging anybody else down. Like in Inside Out when Joy draws the circle around Sadness and tells her just to stay inside it and not touch anything. That's me. She even looks like me.

Ever since I moved to this apartment Miyata the confused christmas cactus always blooms like crazy at Thanksgiving instead, and I've started to wonder if he is trying to make me feel better. If Gaya the birthday orchid does the same thing around my birthday I'll know they planned it.

I took my dad to see Sungha Jung, the acoustic guitarist, last weekend, and he was really amazing in person. That kid is so talented and he was super nice when I got to talk to him for a minute while he signed my poster. Live he's unbelievable, he doesn't even seem real. The other guy was Trace Bundy, who I hadn't heard of before, but he did some really cool stuff with echo and loop pedals and his acoustic guitar, and I wholeheartedly recommend him. My favorite, hands down, was Overtime where he uses an echo and then by the end is kind of playing in between the notes of the echo and no video can do it justice of how cool it was live, but I'm linking it anyway.

I started writing Gravity Verse for NaNo but it's going super slow and I'm only at 7k. I feel pretty okay with that, though. Eh. We're doing a shiritori reshuffle soon and at some point I have to start JE United, but the window on that is hella long, man. I need more frequent shorter exchanges.

Yuri on Ice is....something, isn't it. I really like it, I do, but it's punching my teacher/student squick right in the balls. Coach/older student is still too close. It's great it's not getting censored or labeled funny and the writing and character development is so good, but every time it flashes to Yurio having a tantrum watching Yuri and Victor on TV, I'm basically right there with him.

I guess that's it. Let's get this snow on already, I'm ready.

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01 November 2016 @ 12:08 am
Title: Cold Hands, Warm Heart [Jinguji/Genki]
Rating/Warnings: R for scariness, see below.
Summary: The third floor bathroom is supposed to be haunted, but all Jinguji finds in there is Genki.

See part one for full notes/warnings.

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31 October 2016 @ 11:55 pm
Title: Cold Hands, Warm Heart [Jinguji/Genki]
Rating/Warnings: R for scariness, see below.
Summary: The third floor bathroom is supposed to be haunted, but all Jinguji finds in there is Genki.
AN: Halloween horror fic! Based intensely loosely on the Greek story of Philinnion, plus a handful of other Japanese school urban legends about bathrooms and Genki's true facts bullying problem. It turned out a bit...weird this year.

REAL WARNING: Think Asian horror ghost movie like Ring or Shutter or White. Scary stuff happens to people you enjoy! Character death possible! I don’t want to spoil all the spoils, given the nature of it, but ghosts are involved and they are pissed.

It’s not gory or anything, though, not like crazy serial murder fic or anything, if that’s what you’re worried about. It’s plotty. So…good luck?

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Title: Birthdays and Other Important Updates [Miyata/Tamamori]
Rating/Warnings: R
Summary: Miyata's birthday Jweb is designed to make Tamamori beat him up.
AN: On his birthday, Miyata complained on Jweb that everybody sent him happy birthday messages except Tamamori, but then said, and I quote, "oh well, we share the same dressing room every day. Wait! We also live under the same roof" and pretty much my whole tlist was like WHAT AHAHAHAHA. So apparently, true facts, they are at least living in the same apartment building, but in my opinion that's questionable too, pfft. Anyway somehow this took me a month because I kept falling asleep on my face while writing it.

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11 October 2016 @ 10:54 pm
Sanapig died over the weekend. I'm glad it's over because he was just a shell of himself for weeks at the end and I hated seeing him like that, but he was definitely my favorite Snowpig since Shelbi posted about them being born and I'm pretty sad about it.

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When they were babies, Sanapig and Nokkun were inseparable and even as adults, if I got one out, the other would pace the cage making anxious noises. I never got a picture of it, but often I would look over and see Nokkun casually nibbling Sanapig's ear over the food bowl, so I hope wherever guinea pigs go, they're back together now. I bet his sisters are there too, since I can't imagine all of these pigs lived as stupidly long as Sanapig and Datte have.

the Lucifer single dropped the week they were born, and during the 17 hour drive home from Kansas with 3 terrified baby guinea pigs, I played that song over and over for them because it made them purr. As adults, they would still sit and listen to music or concerts, but would get more excited and purr for SHINee. It's impossible to guess how many Shounen Clubs Sanapig has watched with me, or how many episodes of One Piece.

I've taken so many pictures of Sanapig in the 6.5 years he's been here that it's hard to decide what to even post here but, here.

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He's been here so long I don't even know what to say about him. We always called him the most oshare one because of his calico and super long whiskers. He used to nap on top of the ledge in the same position as I was sprawled on the couch and would watch terrible TV with me, especially Hoarders and Storage Wars and Law & Order. He liked to eat bites off my banana because he didn't want me putting pieces on his cage floor (it would get dirty). He was huge, like a small rabbit. At the vet they had to weigh him on the dog scale. When I had to get his steroids from the real pharmacy a hilarious string of mishaps happened where I had to explain no, Sara is not short for Sanapig and no, I am not his spouse.

Sanapig was my sadness buddy. When Nokkun died from a tumor about 3 years ago, I thought for sure Sanapig would just follow him right after, but nope, he just kept on going even though he and Datte fought too much to live together. He really liked Christina, and when she moved out he moped on the couch with me for weeks. I swear to you this is not projection, he would just lie on his side and look up at me sadly. Even the chinchilla took it better than him.

Since Friday I've tried to talk to him, give him something, or gone to pet him at least 25 times. The new babies are fun and silly, and Datte is still going strong, but none of them are Sanapig.

I miss you, buddy.

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02 October 2016 @ 10:51 pm
my apartment reached a state yesterday where today i called my mother this morning and begged her to come over and help because I just couldn't do it. it wasn't even a matter of physically doing it, like psychologically I had gone past the point of no return.

actually let me back up. about 2 weeks ago I ended up with a pair of baby guinea pigs.

Cute, aw. Taiga has the stripe on his nose and Jesse is the other one. They're doing really well in terms of friendliness given that they've only been here two weeks. but they came in a cage that was intensely too small for them as babies, much less adults. so I broke down and bought the components for a C&C (coroplast) cage with a 2nd level, and then i decided to try and merge them with Datte, whose cage has always been too small. This meant for a week I had four cages - the huge new one, the two smaller ones they were still basically living in, and Sanapig's cage. Plus the new cage was jammed in a corner with my DVD bookcase, and I had to take the chair out of that corner so it was just in the middle of the floor.

Plus the boxes the new stuff came in. Plus the two bags of hay and the 3 (yes 3) bags of various types of bedding I was trying to merge, all of them huge. Plus the two bags of fleece I bought on sale yesterday and the 30lbs of birdseed and about four guinea pig blankets either on the kitchen floor or bathroom floor or taking up half my couch. Everything had to be somewhere other than where it was, but I couldn't move anything because everywhere there were things. My bedroom was covered in folded laundry. the living room had a definite path.

so it's awesome that Datte and the new boys somehow learned to get along in the big cage in about two days when I thought it would take forever/not even be possible. and it's even more awesome that in that whole week nobody peed on the fleece part of their cage even once without me having to 'train' them at all. But man, this week was hard, and i didn't get nearly enough sleep and school is like uugh and no lie, I was about a day away from actually being the kind of hoarder they do TV shows about. Mom and I spent from 1-7 moving things and cleaning cages and vacuuming and taking loads of stuff to the trash/recycling.

I got no school work done, either job school or grad school, and after I took mom home I cried for no reason, but it's over. now there's only one spot that looks stupidly hoarded because that's where all the fleece is still sitting. Taiga is over there popcorning like a nut, though, so at least somebody appreciates it.

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15 September 2016 @ 10:21 pm
This school year feels different. Or more like, I feel different. It's been a good start mostly for me personally, reasonably calm, but like last year, it's exhausting. Every year they add more stuff, and they never take any stuff away, and I redo the same stuff over and over and over because honestly I'm not even sure why. But that's not what I mean. This year I really felt suddenly like I was in the middle third of my career, like I really knew what I was doing and I felt comfortable with what each of my 4 levels should be doing when, and I've made a few new activities but it wasn't because I HAD to, it was because I knew I could run an efficient enough to get an extra thing in that class and I wanted to, because I thought I could make it better. And those things did work, and they were better. It took ten fucking years (it's supposed to take 3-5 of teaching the same class but when you have 4 levels AHAHAHA). I can't really put into words what exactly feels different because I don't really feel better or happier or less stressed out, but different.

and yesterday I had a day where just, it was too busy and stuff kept going wrong and happening unexpectedly, and in the middle i found myself sort of laughing about it, because what can you do, whatever, and I was thinking about how if I had had that day my 2nd year of teaching, or maybe even my 5th, I would have cried. Definitely. Probably in the hallway. So at first I was like, maybe this is what being an adult is actually like, it just all washes over you, but then I thought, maybe I've just reached a point where I've exhausted all my emotions about all of this stuff because it certainly won't get easier or probably any better, so all that's left is to chuckle ruefully no matter what happens.

Sanapig is still alive, somehow. I feel really bad for him, but there's nothing to do but pet him and give him all the lettuce he wants.

Steven Universe back on hiatus I guess, which sucks. All this week i've been trying to make a post about how the Mystery Girl made me feel, but it's complicated. On the one hand I could see how it should be one of my five favorite episodes, if not actually my favorite episode. On the other hand the reason I like Pearl so much is because I empathize with her unfixable loneliness, and giving her a possible remedy to that set at odds my desire for that to actually be the case (SU would do it so RIGHT) against being sad that I am somehow now getting left behind by even fictional characters.

and then I feel bad that that's even a thing I think about, but i've come basically to terms with the fact that having no real person to put emotional investment into, I just channel it all into Japanese guys and apparently now animated gem ladies. Also I thought Onion Friend was dumb but I always feel like that about onion episodes.

Speaking of living vicariously through fandom, today on Jweb Miyata was complaining Tama hadn't sent him a birthday text but then added, "Well, we do share a dressing room, and also live under the same roof" which is pretty glorious. At what point can we decide this is a real thing? Is it now? Their phone game CM is adorable.

I have an intense love for In the Storm, SixTONES new Shounentachi song, so of course it's written by Steven Lee. He writes everything I love!! cannot WAIT to see it on shokura. although I will never see Hokuto/Taiga's chained up version of Rockin Party (or yasui/nabesho duet) dammit, but I guess you can't have everything. One of the posters this month immortalized Taiga's pink hair, and it is already on the wall next to my bed where it pleases me every day.

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28 August 2016 @ 09:58 pm
school starts tomorrow so I'm an anxious mess, ugh. I swear it gets worse every year. I don't really understand why since I'm not changing jobs or classes and half my students are kids I already know and okay last year was intensely hard but now I get to reuse all that work I already did? So what is the problem????

Sanapig is still kicking, bless him. He's so skinny even though i've been giving him lots of treats. I gave up on both of the meds the vet gave me since they were 'just in case' things and didn't seem to make him either feel better or have any other effect. I just couldn't bear fighting with him about swallowing medicine twice a day in his last days, poor guy. Every morning I'm like "Hey buddy, are you still alive?" and then there's a tense couple seconds before he shuffles out and looks up at me suspiciously because he isn't sure whether it'll be a carrot or the antibiotic again. Sigh. His brother is still doing fine, by the way. Probably just waiting for the big cage to finally be his.

I updated the website the whole way up to 2016 before I stalled out this time. There's too many shiritoris! Some moron keeps writing them! But the website has over 1000 things on it now which seems crazy. Speaking of writing, I guess no JE FQF this year? That is a bummer, man. I always turn out good stuff for that. I guess I should just think about United, Halloween, and NaNo instead.

or pretty much anything besides school starting tomorrow nooooooooooooo.

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17 August 2016 @ 10:43 pm
Back from my last summer adventure~ Boooooooo. Actually i had a really nice time visiting [personal profile] beltenebra and it is totally not her fault that the only train from there to here leaves at 7:30am. I caught her up on Steven Universe and she made me watch some Shougeki no Soma which, after the peanut butter tentacles, was much more tolerable in the next couple episodes. Also I played a lot of the 2nd Phoenix Wright game on the train, which I love, but what is the point of having a health bar if four times a trial it's like "YOU ONLY GET ONE CHANCE."

Shinchilla was purportedly very well-behaved and even ran her wheel for everybody (chinchillas running chubbily on saucer wheels is so funny you have no idea). My mom was like "She would run it and then come over to get a cheerio from me!" and I was like no! don't teach her that's a treat trick! bad grandma!! The guinea pigs are always like 'oh you're back .___. " because my mom gives them a ton of attention while dad runs the chinchilla.

Steven Univeeeeeeeeeeeerse. For real, this show. I have all the feelings for it. I love the steady pace of revelations about other gems and homeworld and what happened during the Gem Wars. I love how it's sometimes weirdly dark, but so firmly in Steven's sweet POV that they get away with stuff on a "kid's" show that i'm like "DID THAT ACTUALLY JUST HAPPEN?!" The season 3 Nuke provided me with my now favorite song "It's Over Isn't It" which I have been singing constantly for weeks now, and it always amuses me that the original Rebecca Sugar ukelele demo of any song is always practically better than the finished version. I want an album of all of those. TAKE MY MONEY. Also a Lion plush. I want it.

cut for other real facts thing I want to say about SU in case some of you aren't watching this amazing piece of television artCollapse )

Also due to reasons I mainlined all 3 seasons of Bojack Horsemen in about four days and uh...don't do that. Or at least, don't do that until you won't end at the end of season 3 anymore. Idk if 4 will be less soul-destroying, but at the end of 3 I basically felt like I empathized way too deeply with this guy (horse) that nobody ever should even sympathize with and EVERYTHING IS MEANINGLESS OH GOD. Maybe starting with "Brap Brap Pew Pew" was also a bad idea. Or honestly, maybe it wasn't? like if you're trying to figure out if you can handle this thing, maybe you absolutely should start with that one (it's mid-season 3). I'm not even sure whether I'm recommending this show or not. I thought it would be bad, like I think Archer is bad, but I kind of think it's good, in a dark guilty way. It's definitely honest, in a way most TV isn't. It has clear narrative arc and characters that are sometimes bizarre but never in an uncharacteristic way. Why am I defending Bojack Horseman? I don't even know.

You know, BJ and SU are kind of like the polar opposites of the best things on TV right now, or at least their tones are opposite. SU's message is like growth and change are hard but positive and works best when you extend trust to others around you, BJ's message is more like past a certain point there's no way to change or escape the deep core part of yourself, even if you want/need to, even if that part happens to be destructive or self-destructive. So both of them are like "You have to be yourself" but SU is like "You have to be YOURSELF" and BJ is like "You HAVE TO be yourself."

I'm not even sure why I just sat here and thought about that for 20 minutes. OKAY.

So anyway school restarts soon and I'm already anxious ugh. I've been trying to update my website and I'm down to just shiritoris (plus I guess SASO) so if I could finish that by the end of summer I would feel good about that.

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