I'm trying to stay positive about just getting through this year and understanding that everybody's first year is terrible, but I'm so tired and full of dread, even after ten days off. Even thinking about going back has had my chest all tight all day. It doesn't help that when I am stressed out, all I want is to be left alone, which is like the antithesis of what I do all day.
i recognize that there are lots of people doing jobs they hate a lot more for a lot less money, but I really just need to get in a place where I'm not worrying about going to work in all the time where i'm not actually there.
I gave myself a timeline of three years to see if things get better and network and stuff before I make any real decisions. I felt a little better after i put a limit on the worst case scenario
the job is just that place I go all day to pay for the other stuff. the job is just that place I go all day to pay for the other stuff. the job is just that place I go all day to pay for the other stuff...
I DISTRACT MYSELF WITH W-INDS. Have some youtubery from swtjemz!
Hush & 1 or 8. OMG LEATHER TRENCHCOATS.
Sup Wassup. Two words: Dance. Battle.