melancholyI do have a vanilla coke and some chex mix, though, and also a completely ridiculous case of ennui which probably has a lot to do with the 4-5 hours of sleep I get at night which is now being interrupted at regular intervals by me lying in the dark wondering wth i will do with myself for the rest of my life if I really do get blinded by lasers.
one of my students: "But they'd probably only screw up one eye, max! The other one would be okay!"
another student: "who needs depth perception!"
me: "CAN WE PLEASE GO BACK TO HERCULES."
also i think the pleasure-seeking, lizard hind part of my brain has realized that no, we are not going to japan at all this year, not even at the last second like last year, so there is no onigiri or shinkansen or concerts curry pringles anywhere in my near future, and lo i am very sad. I think the Kisumai concert announcements kicked this, which is always simmering under the surface, into overdrive.
also my ipod is dead still. one of my students is going to try and fix it tomorrow. I know I need a new one, but it's like this is the last straw this week, where i am clinging to this object for emotional reasons even though its ridiculous and I'm not in any state to argue with myself. I bought it in grad school after the rat died as a don't quit grad school present D: HOW CAN I GO TO THE POD HOTEL WITH NO IPOD. ...this is why I will be on Hoarders someday.
to end on a positive note, I will tell you that I like KAT-TUN's single a whole lot, and also I am eating all the rye chips out of my chex mix.
