On Saturday we did the Natural Museum of History, where I had shamefully never been to see the dinosaurs. they have a poisons exhibit and a pterosaur exibit on right now, both of which I felt were totally worth the money, and then we did a planetarium show too which I enjoyed. Plus dinosaurs! and we did most of the marine life stuff too, but man, there is so much stuff there. then we went down to 14th st and walked around the Highline, which is an old train track that they made into a public garden (because apparently hours and hours of walking wasn't enough). It was beautiful though, on a nice day, I definitely recommend that.
Sunday I went to karaoke by myself for a couple hours before the train, and originally i felt loserish about that, but it turned out to be a good idea cause apparently singing some of those songs in front of other people won't be okay for a while. But I did sing Bad Boys and have had it stuck in my head ever since. And then i hit up the Wafel and Dinges truck, because wafels.
It's not that I feel better, because I don't, but I've at least been faking my way through normal fandom stuff like writing and reading with more success. I've read most of the wakamono fics without having to quit in the middle, watched the BBJ movie, enjoyed the new kisumai PVs, idk. It's nice to write again, I guess. at least it takes up my time.
home is kind of tense, obviously. I'm trying not to be a jerk or anything during the couple hours a day we have to hang around together necessarily, or more like, I'm trying just to do whatever stuff I would have done normally and not worry about it. I go on asking things like "is there something you want to eat this week" or "is there anything you'd rather watch than this" but the response I always get is "whatever you want." I just try to shrug it off. This whole time Ri's been deeply convinced I find her inconvenient no matter what I say about it, so at this point my motivation is simply to let her think whatever she wants while I do as little to complain about as possible.
Sometimes i get frustrated about it, because I'm not sure exactly what friend thing you think I can do with you when you excised me from all your online spaces and that is where all your friend things happen, but then I just figure, it's whatever. There's nothing I can do about it. If me carrying on in my usual way is so unbearable, then I guess she will go someplace else. She could watch or listen to whatever at any time and it wouldn't bother me even a little, but surely it bothers me even less if she wants to sit on her small patch of couch in silence on her laptop in 'guest mode' until whenever.
or until moving, which is going to happen whether we ever have a talk about that or not. the guinea pigs are going over to my parents' while I'm in Florida and until the move is over, but I haven't made any other plans honestly, like change of address or utility or cable. I haven't picked a date any of that stuff should switch over, or put anything in a box. I'm glad that moving will force this situation to change at least somehow, but I wouldn't say I'm excited about it, or how it will feel like no place is home for at least the first little while.
sigh, it's whatever. up next, vacuum, making pistachio chicken, finish this pinch, and maybe clip some more magazines.
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